first days of school

max: kindergarten

graham: 3 year old preschool

we are entering a new stage around our house.  the school age stage.  

i cried.  i smiled.  i smiled through tears.

i fought back a lot of emotions about max starting k and then i let them all out.  

i read blogs and prayed and worried. but ultimately, i decided that most of my feelings came from the thought that my time as a stay at home mom to max was over.  but its not.  not even close.  and once God pointed that to me, i decided to enjoy it.  to balance my day so i can sit with him in the play room after school and he can talk to me if he wants, or he can just play and i can just watch.  one day, i even thought to myself "i'm a better mom with him at school." see, i can focus on olivia.  i can focus on graham.  i can focus on all the house/life stuff.  and then when he gets home, i can focus on max.

and then there's gra man.  i thought he would cry on his first day of school, but no.  he was ready.  but man, he gave me the best hug when i picked him up.  he is the sweet cuddle bug i never knew i wanted, but am so so glad i have.